Sunday, 9 January 2011

Long time no see...

I haven't blogged for ages.. I can't actually remember the last time I logged on here actually. But things are going to change, I plan on blogging at least once a week from now on!

Christmas was lovely, I spent it with my nearest and dearest and received some very nice presents.

The day after boxing day was the start of a decline in my mood unfortunately. I spent the following days mainly in bed, crying and feeling generally awful. I'm not sure why. Maybe it was because I'd been so busy during the build up to Christmas and I was just tired? Or possibly it was the post Christmas blues. But after around 8 days my mood lightened. I'm now feeling pretty good, my boyfriend is really supporting me through fighting my anxiety. We've been out and about a lot more, we went for two meals this week! We went to Sainsburys and my little task was to leave him and go down an aisle alone and pick some items. Well, I done better than that.. I left him at the DVD section and went to the veggie part and butter part to get ingredients for a pizza pastry thing! So I was probably walking around alone for... 3 minutes. Okay that doesn't sound very long to you, but to me it's great!! I also went to Asda with him and walked from around half way through the store to the other end to get a cake then back again to meet him in the shampoo bit. These are baby steps but very important steps for me.

I need to continue going out in public pretty much every day and not allow myself to be stuck inside for too long as I do slip back into depression very easily.

I've almost finished my Victorian silhouette cross stitch. It's taken me ages as the aida is SO tiny, I think it's around 2mm. It's looking great though, so neat. My Mum finished her one of a stags head this evening, it looks brilliant. I'll take some photos later.

I got a cupcake cushion tapestry for Christmas off my parents which is absolutely gorgeous but is going to take me a very long time to complete. I've done 5 rows so far and that took a while.. but it's so cute and pretty, I can't wait to finish it!

I've made some new videos for youtube recently.. not that many people watch them, but it gives me something to do! Here's the link for my channel

I'm seeing Linda on Weds which I'm looking forward to, she is like a miracle worker I swear!

Time for bed! xxx


  1. Keep up the good work, sounds like you are really focussed on beating your anxiety this year, just been catching up with your videos too, keep smiling my lovely xxx

  2. Well done hun :) you should be proud of yourself, that really is a great achievement and like you said baby steps will do it xx I also went through a rough patch over christmas and i've only just begun to shake it; i really do think it's to do with the whole anti-climax and tiredness kinda thing. Keep smiling hunnie :) I do watch your videos on youtube,love them, they cheer me up and i'm alwys envious of your gorgeous eye make up and hair :) xxx